Monday, April 07, 2008
This was what I woke up to this morning. Took this off of my bedroom balcony. Pretty eh? Thought I'd treat you to a Sunday pix since I didn't get one in yesterday.
Been on the phone all day with doctors. Yeah. It's a big deal. Acute vision loss. It's worse today. So, Betsy is going to drive me into UT tomorrow so they can see me and figure out why I'm going blind in that eye. The good news and what makes me feel better is that the MRI was negative back in December. That was after an episode like this but not quite as bad. So, they don't think I have a clot back there.
I've been thinking a lot about what I would do if I lost my vision. I mean, if this happened in both my eyes I wouldn't be able to see at all. I wonder if I would be able to write. Writing is such a visual thing--and I've always been such a visual person. It's how I learn things. I don't only write to write stories, but there is something about the arrangement of words on a page that is beyond just the craft. It's a visual-design thing. There are nuances on the page of how certain punctuation looks. Like, emdashes look muscular and semicolons are much more feminine--it's about how they look as much as what they do. How will I function if I can't see that?
I didn't really understand what was happening until I looked at a printed page. The letters look like they've been typed with an overused typewriter ribbon (for those of you too young to know what this looks like--a laser printer that has run out of toner will do the same thing). How ironic is that? The writer loses the ability to see print.
I'm being really brave about this, but you know what? I'm really scared.
My thoughts are with you during this scary time.
I am hopeful I will hear good news from you in a day or so.
I love you mountain scenery. I hope to return to you area for a short while next Fall when I attend a nieces wedding.
and its so true about writing and the visual design connection...i know exactly what you mean. its been hard to get used to typing on a stupid computer instead of doing what i love which is to write poetry by hand....but alas my hands are done with that...it kills and the scrawl is so bad i don't even know what i've written.
so i'm lucky to have a computer eh?
anyway....i'm hoping ofcourse that the doctor goes well well well and that yr eyeballs keep on seeing everything!
That is exquisite and I know that even if the words are blurry you'll make them dance.
Scratch that.
Praying for a full recovery. Nothing less.
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Did the doctor think you will lose your sight in that eye or is he just concerned that it might happen? I pray that it will get better. Maybe it's something that will clear up with medication. Take care and let us know what he says when you go for your visit tomorrow. I'll be praying for you.
Love and prayers
Leeuna
We will send our prayers to all the spirits listening.
Your writing is something that comes from inside you and that will not change.
Hugs and prayers to you, my friend.
I hope all is well with you. Vision scares would shake me down to my boots and back up to the crown of my head.